GAY

i guess it’s hard to accept the truth that is when you found out someone that really close to you is gay. maybe like any of your family member. i remember years back, i told my sister that i am gay, i thought she would be supportive as usual, was expectin that she will say “ok, as long as you are happy with it, and never be regretted with it, go ahead then.” but things were another way round, she was cryin on the phone, askin me to be “normal” which i dont think that i am abnormal, and askin me if i needed to see a psychiatrist. i refused to of course, and i said i am normal, very normal, gay relationship is just like hetrosexual relationship, nothin is wrong, it’s just that gay has different sexuality.

 slowly and slowly, i think she can accept “it” better nowaday ever since i told her about my ex boyfriend and i. but sometimes when we were talkin, she will say “i hope to see you with a girlfriend, but not a boyfriend.” . and somehow i gave her a lil false hope. i said to her “no one knows what’s goin to happen in the future, so who knows maybe i could be straight in the future?”. but i told her to be prepared for the bad ones too. it took her years to accept this fact. pheeuuww… finally.

 so today a friend of mine was tellin me on msn, sayin that the brother admitted that he has a boyfriend and they have been goin out for a year plus. at first the brother told her that he is bisexual, but today she told me that she thinks that the brother is gay, but not bisexual. and so she had a long talk with the brother, and things get revealed. she was at work and she went into the toilet and cried. hm.. i feel really sorry for her. she said she doesnt even want to hate the brother, but she just hated the truth.. sigh.. so sad.. i told her that hurtin her is the last thing that the brother will want to do to her. cus they are really so close, just like good friends. i told her that the brother must be feelin very bad for hurtin her and disappointin her.

hm.. that’s life.
“some people lived their whole life, but never fall in love; i live to my life, and i fell in love”