Distance

When you want to love someone, and he is so far away, and you keep tellin yourself that it’s actually not that bad, good days will come soon.

Sometimes, you are just bein contradicted, when the loneliness weakens your mind, when you want to share happiness, or bitterness. When you need a shoulder to lean on, when you need a hug, when you need a nice dinner or a movie or a face-to-face talk, with him. Everythin is just so far away, because of, DISTANCE.

Even though he asked you to move on, start to go out with other people, as, he doesnt even know when is the next time he will be able to see me, as, he is not so well, and it might be a very long time to get well. Even though he asked me to build another relationship here, as, he doesnt want to waste my time, as, he doesnt know how will he be.

But, i dont want to give up, even though i feel like it at times, but still, i think i wont. I dont know what’s wrong or what’s right, or maybe there’s nothin to be wrong or right at all. I think i’ll wait, i dont want to feel regret someday, in the future.

I’ll just need to have faith, have hope.

Dear KiwiCharlie

i think you might be readin this. Just to wish you a good weekend ahead. *grins*

my KIND colleague!

SCREAM

Have you ever felt just like wantin to screamin on top of your lung because of work load?

Yes?
Then,
.
.

SCREAM!!!
.
.

Ash.

Haven’t blogged for quite a while. This post will be about Ash.

Ash, a cat that strayed into my front yard one fine day in June last year, he was terribly sick: terribly infected and bleedin skin, left eye blind, skinny, tiny, weak, filthy. such a poor little cat. I started to feed him and clean his skin every and he then becomin better and better, bigger and bigger, stronger and stronger. Brought him to vaccinate & deworm. And then to an animal eye specialist, the doctor called it a “pocket-eye”. which means the eye ball was born smaller, and that’s why the third eye lid is coverin the eye and causin a lot of slimy. No operation or medication to cure, it was born like that, but that doesnt affect his movin around.

I named him Ash is because of his hair colour, greyish and ash-ish. Well, maybe not too grey but i like the name of “Ash”.

He’s an indoor-outdoor cat. When i am out workin and he will be out, when i am home, and he will be home. So sometimes he fights with the neighbour cats and can see the white spots which the hair has gone off from the fights.

He’s clever and didn’t take me a lot of time or effort to teach him to poo in his loo(the cat litterin tray). it was just one-time work. i locked him inside of the house and after a while his mother nature was urgin him, he jumped into the tray and ever since then, that’s his loo, and i am the loo cleaner.

But somethin’s botherin me now, it’s about bringin him for neuter. It’s cruel, but i have to be wise. sigh..

today it feels like this, to me

Life

They deserve a better childhood, more funs, more games.
Somewhere out there flyin kites or ridin bikes.
But not workin at this age.

So you know, how lucky you are, to sit in front of the computer, and surf, and read blogs.

Beauty

I realized, she is not young anymore.
I realized, she is old.
I realized, she is not as active as she was.
I realized, she walks slower.
I realized, she is 10 years old.
I realized, she ages 56 in human age.
I realized, she recognizes me well even i dont go home often.
I realized, she recognizes the sound of my foot steps even i put on or i lost weight.
I realized, she still likes to sleep next to me.
I realized, she still purrs when she sleeps next to me.
I realized, she is a very understandin cat.
I realized, whenever i feel sad, she sits next to me quietly.
I realized, she understand when we talk to her.
I realized, she loves human food more than her own food these days.
I realized, she still likes games once in a while.
I realized, she sleeps more than stayin awake.
I realized, she waits at the door when we go out.
I realized, she misses me.
I realized, she’s incisors are gone.
I realized, she has only canines.
I realized, she eats so much slower.
I realized, she eats so much lesser.
I realized, my heart aches so much.
i realized, i love her more than i thought i could.
I realized, i cant afford to lose her.
I realized, she is a soul partener, a soul mate.
I realized, how little time i spent with her after my highschool.
I realized, i miss her.

Cameron Highland

I went home during Hari Raya holidays, for six days. it was good, finally i’ve got a kind-of-long break from work, to get relaxed and recharged. my brother suggested  to go for a day trip to cameron highland. i havent been there since 1994, 14 years ago.

i can hardly remember how it was back in 1994, but i can tell that the flowers there arent as beautiful as they were. but i really like the weather there. not stuffy, not smoky. chilly weather, cool breeze, fresh air and clear sky.

Duku & Langsat

Do Re Mi Fa~~~~~

creatively planted.

R

song playin now : Norah Jones – The Long Day Is Over.

Michelle shared this song with me, listenin to it now and it makes me think about R. hmm..

i liked him. i remember those excitements and happiness i used to feel whenever i receive his sms or calls. i remember Michelle saw me smilin so happily in the office pantry after talkin to him on the phone, i just couldn’t help smilin, like a retard. lol.

but we are good friends now. we just understand that we are not meant for each other.